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Wow. Its hard to believe that in eleven days I am going to be 21. Thank you God for mercy, grace, healing and salvation just in time. Usually this is the part where people begin to talk about how they are getting old with a dreadful tone of voice. I , on the other hand, don't share that feeling. Sure I am a whole lot older than 21 inside. Going through the type of life that I have been through because of choices I or another person in my life have made, does that to a person. Although I look at my life with a sense of hope of much more to come. Blessings, miracles, earthly gain and of course the ultimate reward, eternal life with my Father. Not to boast, but I speak now with a faith that is impossible to explain. The amount of hope and faith that I have in the prayers that I have been praying being answered is so great. It's like this. You order something online and the shipping takes two weeks to get in. The day that it gets in, the UPS man comes to your door and you're not home that day. So they leave you a note and tell you to pick it up at the nearest UPS Store. That's how I feel about these memorial prayers (Prayers that take a little more time vs an immediate response to a prayer) Like I have prayed (ordered) this prayer and God has told me to wait a bit for it to come in. The faith and hope that I have right now is like seeing that note on my door (Godd's Word) saying come pick it up. Its already been bought, freely given and not its time to pick it up. Right now I'm just in the car, driving to the nearest UPS Store. I pray that when these prayers are answered and the blessing is pour out upon my life that it will uplift the faith of others, that the Lord will lead me to the proper people or place to a blessing back, and that I will remain humble, broken and contrite in Spirit with the favor and blessing of God on my life and decisions and my focus always always always set on Him.

What good is to gain the whole world and lose your soul.

It's not about what I want but what He wants from me. It's not about where I wanna go but rather where He is leading me.

The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.
-Psalms 37:23